Russ Cook

And then I tried to cover it up by lying, which is something that I knew was wrong, but I did it anyway because of the shame that I was feeling.

And I think that...

even in that moment, that showed me how important like responsibility is, especially to people that you care about.

That person's around me and I've let them down and it kind of, that was such a pain that it did, it pained me enough to know that I need to change this, you know?

So I think like if I try and pick, that would be a big one that I would pinpoint and go like, that was a tough one, that.

Yeah, yeah.

Like, wow, I can't believe that I would let myself get to that kind of position.

But, you know, c'est la vie, that's the journey of life and hopefully I'm a better person now for it.

Yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

The reason is not though.

Really?

Well, I would say like it's the same fundamental skills just on a bigger scale, you know.

What gave you the belief that you were the guy that can do that on a really big scale?

Because most people wouldn't even consider that.

So I did the Brighton Fall Marathon.

And then from then I was training a lot, pretty much every day.

And I'd kind of gone on this run of building self-esteem, building belief in myself, building

just more than anything, just by going out and doing the work, I was building my evidence that I am who I say I am, you know, like it was naturally building in me.

And I got to a point where I was like, right, I, you know, I'm sick of the cleaning jobs that aren't giving my life any meaning.