Ryan Soave

I feel like for me,

I was like you in the sense I just felt like I was different, somehow different.

I couldn't put a finger on it.

Like I had a hard time connecting with people.

But to that guy's point about three martinis, if I have two drinks, all of a sudden I'm like, oh, I can open up.

No, I can actually connect with people.

I just need to have a couple drinks.

Problem is, is that once I have two, I go, yeah, but if this is good, what would a third be like?

But then you start to go, all right, well, if I have to connect with people and if I want to feel this way, which makes me feel more connected to everyone around me in the world, I'm going to have to use this thing.

And then you keep repeating that over time.

It works until it doesn't effectively.

Yeah.

What did you do?

After you decided, you're like, all right, I got to do something.

What did you do?

And what were the hardest parts?

Yeah.

I had a guy who told me when I was first getting sober around social situations and alcohol.

He was like, look, if you feel like your sobriety is at risk and you feel like you know that is not a good place for you to go to break that.

I was like, oh.