Róisín Ingle

And the reason we were out swimming was because I had made, not made him, I mean, he's an adult, but I had said, I really, really want to go, even though it was dark, even though it was late, even though the waves were really high.

But our whole thing was very daredevil-y.

We always went out in the waves.

And I remember it sort of like I think I don't know if my mother told her exactly or she tried to fudge it or whatever, but I could hear that this was a thing that was going to be asked.

And the answer was I was the one who made us go swimming.

So in my head, I was the guilty person.

You know, I was guilty.

But I don't feel like that anymore because I know that he's an adult and I was a child.

And he could have said, no, we're not going swimming.

Right.

But at the time, yeah.

So that's a big thing.

That's a big weight.

It's probably bigger than my dad dying in a weird way.

Yeah.

No, no, I like it.

I like what you're saying.

No, I mean, I think there's probably something in that.

Yeah, I felt bad.

I felt bad about myself.