Róisín Ingle

At night, I would lie in bed and I would go through everything that had happened that day.

I would just say, oh yeah, today we got up and we, it was a weird one.

Again, it was shock.

I was like, I was having to, I was trying to remind myself that I had lived the day and this is what happened.

I was, I think it's, I was alive.

I was alive.

And then the doctor, because there's a lot of medical stuff happening because I broke my ankle and didn't, you know, there was a lot of things happening and it was just to remind myself, you know, that I am here in the world.

It was sort of grounding or something.

It was like, and Johnny would just sit there going, yeah, okay.

And he'd listen, but that was another part of the shock.

Yeah.

And I need, I didn't want to be on my own.

It's just, I can feel it now actually coming in.

It's just a kind of like, for both of us, actually, Johnny and I, we both felt quite nauseous a lot of the time and I couldn't eat, which is very unusual for me.

That was another way it affected me.

So that's shock, but that's like something that goes away eventually.

And you think it won't.

And part of you is thinking, is this now my new existence?

Is this how I'm going to be?

But you don't, you've probably had shocks in your life and you know, it does go away eventually.