Sam Blackman
speaker
85 appearances
1 recordings
1 series
first heard Jul 2026
last heard 21 Jul
Sam Blackman’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
Trend
recordings per month · last 12 monthsRecordings per month over the last 12 months — 1 in all, peaking in Jul 2026 with 1.
Appearances
I looked in the usual places.
I looked in the lab and the labor and delivery ward and the operating room.
But for me, the images under the microscope were just mostly interesting.
And the birth of a child, if it's not your child, is not beautiful.
Sorry.
And in the operating room, I found more brutality than beauty.
As a second-year pediatric resident, if there was beauty in medicine, I wasn't seeing it.
After 100-hour work weeks, a kid could crap rose petals, and I would just dutifully put some in a vial and note it in the chart.
And don't confuse cute with beauty.
Sick kids, even really sick kids, can be cute, but disease is not beauty, and parents of sick kids are not beautiful.
Parents of sick kids are terrified.
And when you feel that the life of your child is in danger, you want some element of control, and what you don't want is a second-year pediatric resident, and you certainly didn't want me at that time.
Because between the crushing fatigue and the constant fear of screwing up and not knowing enough, not only was there no beauty in my life, but I was actually getting uglier, because I would let the frustration and the fear creep in, and sometimes my words would hurt the people that I was there to help.
And it turned out that there were moments where I was so ashamed because for someone who so desperately wanted to be a doctor, I was not being the doctor that I wanted to be.
I was not being my best self.
Brianna's mother took this to a whole new level.
The rage that she felt and that she made the team feel pervaded us on a daily basis.
And we all knew why.
Her child was going to die, and there was nothing that we could do about it.
She had the period, worst period, tumor period ever.
Showing 1–20 of 85 · page 1 of 5
Next →