Sam Troth

He probably carries a lot of blame and shame himself.

When I walked the country in 2022, I wrote him a letter first the year before.

But I didn't actually end up giving it to him.

And then when I walked the country, I started emailing him.

Face-to-face conversation.

I can't without emotions taken over.

I can't get the words out.

I just can't make anything happen.

I go back to a little boy.

When I'm around my dad, it's a real weird relationship.

It's fucked it, basically.

And, yeah, so we had some emails back and forth.

where he was able to explain how he felt and how it made him feel and what was going on for him at the time, which was really cool because that gave me some clarity about what was happening for him and his relationship and his life as to why things were going over his head or his guard was down or whatever.

Yeah.

The ripple effects of sexual violence, they just, it fucking tears families apart.

It destroys relationships.

It fucks everything.

And in my situation,

my perpetrator was external to our family and sadly two-thirds of the time perpetrators of child sexual abuse, they are part of the family.

So, you know, when you look at how difficult and how much of an effect and how sort of shattered