Sam Troth

these fundamentals of my family from this, then you can only imagine how much worse it becomes when these perpetrators are a part of the family.

It's, yeah, it's a huge, huge issue, bro.

How bad did your spiral into addiction get?

I was addicted to meth for about 15 years, bro.

I've been clean for about six.

How bad did it get for you?

Yeah, pretty bad, bro.

Daily user.

You know, needed sort of half a gram a day.

Had to have it to get up to go to work.

Yeah.

And –

scary thing about it man is you have someone and nothing else fucking matters you know like your world can be falling apart and and you get high and you're fixing your car or you're helping your mate fucking mowers lawns you know what i mean you're you're away and then

When you come down, everything's a thousand times worse.

So I suffer, I still suffer probably once or twice a week from night terrors or flashbacks or, you know, I'll have these dreams of what used to happen to me.

When I'd use gear, I wouldn't dream, I wouldn't have these dreams, so it was really good.

But then when I ran out and tried to, you know, like win a day or two without any,

holy shit, man, the dreams would be absolutely out of control.

Um, so I'd use again to try and stop that from happening, you know?

Um, so when I did stop using and I reached out and started, um, seeing a psychologist and that, and I seen a psychologist for two and a half years weekly.