Sarah Edmondson

Right.

And they used to give me things to kind of keep me hooked.

Like they promoted me to green sash at a time when I was like, I think I'd just given birth to Troy.

And if anyone knows, for the NXIVM nerds out there, I was an orange three-stripe.

Proctor.

In other words, I had to get another stripe and then I would get my green sash.

And I, that was taking so long.

And then every week they skipped me, they skipped a rank and promoted me to Proctor or to senior Proctor, which is green sash, which is like, was great.

And I was really happy, but I was like,

Did I earn this?

How did I... I think they just were trying to give me the thing that I was going for so I'd stay involved.

Yeah.

So that had happened a few years earlier, but I hadn't got my first stripe on my sash and I wasn't working through my issues and I had stagnated.

So when Lauren invited me, it was...

the main selling point for me is that I'd get to spend time with Lauren and work with her and we get to check in daily and it's called a master slave relationship, but that's not, you know, it's not really a master slave.

Like that's how she's, that's how she painted it.

It was like, you know, we call it master slave.

Like you're going to, you're going to, you know, text me as master and I'm in your slave, but like, right.

Which to anyone else listening would be like, that's so fucked up.

Let me just finish.