Sarah Kanowski

But it was everywhere and...

It was weird because it was like you're not happy.

People aren't happy.

No one is.

That was the mindset I had, that you've just got to do the best with what you've got and if all else fails, then there's no future ahead.

No.

Yeah, I think, so I remember there's one memory I have when I was four and it was my mum being beaten by the man she was with at the time.

And he was holding her down and he was striking her with everything he had.

And I was standing in the doorway with my twin sister, my brother and my older sister and just screaming.

And I knew they were screaming and I was screaming, my mum was screaming.

And at the time it was confusing because I knew it was wrong, I didn't know why.

And I just remember the feeling of looking at my brother and my sisters and...

just feeling powerless to stop what they were feeling or to fix what they were feeling.

And then this guy gets up and shuts the door in our face and goes back and continues and just feeling like I was completely helpless.

There's nothing I could do.

And that memory has just played over and over again.

just that sense of helplessness and powerlessness.

And there were other things that had happened throughout my childhood that I felt that same sense of powerlessness.

And by the time I was a teenager, that's how I felt just as a person.

And it wasn't like you need power or that I needed power.