Selma

It's like this tiny one. It's not even in a part. It's like a studio. So it's this tiny, tiny studio. We're all sitting together on this couch, five of us. And we're all like on our phones. And then the TV's on and we're all checking. And there's like barely any space. I don't know if I would describe it as crashing because we didn't sleep. So none of us were sleeping, actually.

It's like this tiny one. It's not even in a part. It's like a studio. So it's this tiny, tiny studio. We're all sitting together on this couch, five of us. And we're all like on our phones. And then the TV's on and we're all checking. And there's like barely any space. I don't know if I would describe it as crashing because we didn't sleep. So none of us were sleeping, actually.

It felt like we were on duty for some reason, you know, like we were like on call constantly.

It felt like we were on duty for some reason, you know, like we were like on call constantly.

One of them, it's not funny, but he kept fainting. And so he would go into the room and then just like almost pass out. So the first thing I did was I didn't know what to do. So I gave him a tomato with like salt on it and I just shoved it into his mouth. And I was like, OK, I think your blood pressure is dropping.

One of them, it's not funny, but he kept fainting. And so he would go into the room and then just like almost pass out. So the first thing I did was I didn't know what to do. So I gave him a tomato with like salt on it and I just shoved it into his mouth. And I was like, OK, I think your blood pressure is dropping.

They noticed there was a pattern to his fainting. First, he'd start sweating profusely, then go stand in the door to cool off, then head towards the bathroom. By the third time, we kind of got the routine down. We saw him open the door. We're like, he's about to pass out. Someone start doing all the steps. We kept joking. They're like, you can't pass out now. You got to be strong.

They noticed there was a pattern to his fainting. First, he'd start sweating profusely, then go stand in the door to cool off, then head towards the bathroom. By the third time, we kind of got the routine down. We saw him open the door. We're like, he's about to pass out. Someone start doing all the steps. We kept joking. They're like, you can't pass out now. You got to be strong.

You got to make it till the regime falls.

You got to make it till the regime falls.

I think it was just like our bodies going into shock and like each person was kind of doing it differently. Like for me, I cry a lot and I have like panic attacks and then I throw up, which is kind of gross, but that's what would happen to me. Like I would get really nauseous, really nauseous, really nauseous. Like I would go and throw up.

I think it was just like our bodies going into shock and like each person was kind of doing it differently. Like for me, I cry a lot and I have like panic attacks and then I throw up, which is kind of gross, but that's what would happen to me. Like I would get really nauseous, really nauseous, really nauseous. Like I would go and throw up.

Knowing that we would be the last, I was holding it in. And so the first thing I did was I cried. I hugged all my friends. I just, I sat there kind of like staring at the wall, crying, crying, crying, crying.

Knowing that we would be the last, I was holding it in. And so the first thing I did was I cried. I hugged all my friends. I just, I sat there kind of like staring at the wall, crying, crying, crying, crying.

I knew I couldn't go back with the regime there. And so I started slowly distancing myself from my memories. Before, I would post a lot of photos saying, I miss Damascus, or I miss this, or I miss my house, and I miss that. And I stopped doing that on purpose. And

I knew I couldn't go back with the regime there. And so I started slowly distancing myself from my memories. Before, I would post a lot of photos saying, I miss Damascus, or I miss this, or I miss my house, and I miss that. And I stopped doing that on purpose. And

even like between myself when I'm alone if I would remember something or if I would find myself kind of like daydreaming I would stop myself and I wouldn't let myself kind of go through with it what kind of daydream like sometimes I would daydream about my house and like sorry it's okay Yeah, I don't know. It's a place where I have a lot of good memories.

even like between myself when I'm alone if I would remember something or if I would find myself kind of like daydreaming I would stop myself and I wouldn't let myself kind of go through with it what kind of daydream like sometimes I would daydream about my house and like sorry it's okay Yeah, I don't know. It's a place where I have a lot of good memories.

And it's the place where me and my siblings did this and did that. And sometimes I would just daydream about walking into my room and going back and sitting in my living room and looking out the window. And I wouldn't let myself do that anymore. And even at times where I would have dreams about being in my house again, I would wake myself up and be like, no, this isn't real.

And it's the place where me and my siblings did this and did that. And sometimes I would just daydream about walking into my room and going back and sitting in my living room and looking out the window. And I wouldn't let myself do that anymore. And even at times where I would have dreams about being in my house again, I would wake myself up and be like, no, this isn't real.