Shahroo Izadi

You're asking them to care.

It was just reducing the snacks.

It was reducing the desserts.

It was reducing the portion sizes.

But I noticed, because of course I was hungry, and my mum's not cruel, so she would then

I was able to eat as much as I wanted.

But I just noted there were subtle changes, you know?

And I think a lot of kids do because it is genuine concern.

Like, oh, why don't you have your broccoli first?

Or, you know, things like that.

And you do kind of pick up, why is no one else getting comments like that?

The other thing that I now know, I've now been diagnosed with ADHD.

So I know a lot now that I wouldn't have known then.

Like?

Like I would have been looking for dopamine hits big time, especially if I was restricted.

And then if I was going to consume sugar on an empty stomach or on a boring, you know, the overcorrection.

And then the shame that I felt about that was invariably going to make me more vulnerable, addiction vulnerable, to consume more sugar, to numb out, to distract from what I'd just done.

Then I would gain weight, which of course would piss everyone else off.

And then...

That in itself was shameful and upsetting to me.