Shahroo Izadi

And by that point, sugar and food were becoming my drug of choice.

And the only other drug of choice that was second, but evidently from my body size, not winning, was the control of restriction.

So you had both.

I had both.

I was getting the dopamine hit off the control of restriction.

Wow.

Of sobriety.

Basically, I had a program.

But that means eating nothing.

Yes.

So that's essentially what I was doing.

And then more and more when I would do that, my periods of restriction would get...

shorter and my periods of relapse or rather my last you know final binge that's it last hurrah would be intense because there was more shame this was really the last time and i really wanted to eat all these foods for the one last time i just know that it's and it's not just going to be women men and women are going to be watching this and just going

And that's where you want to change from.

Yeah.

Sorry to interrupt.

No, but that's exactly it.

Exactly it.

It's the same as using.

It's the same as having like one big use up.