Shonda Rhimes

But it was numbing me.

And so really discovering that was really this internal journey of discovering why I felt this way and why my emotions were that.

And so in the end, I ended up losing a ton of weight, but really that wasn't the thing that was interesting to me.

The thing was that I now felt like my body was a part of me versus feeling like it was, I live in my imagination.

So versus feeling like it was just something that carried my brain around, it really started to feel like who I was.

You are.

And it's interesting.

Like I never thought of myself as being athletic.

I've never thought of myself as being perfectly, you know, even a little bit coordinated.

I was very safe on this idea that like I lived on my sofa, you know, lying down feels good.

I lived on my sofa and I considered it to be like a great way of life.

I'm like, that's how you're cozy with your friends and your family.

You're all sitting around.

The love language of my entire family is food.

You know, that's definitely how that works.

And that's a way of being social and showing a care for people.

But what you're thinking about is not... For me, I really realized that I wasn't saying...

yes to my health.

It wasn't really about that.

It wasn't that I was saying no to my, it was that I was saying yes to being like overweight and unhealthy.