Sophie Smith

These three babies were...

you know, everything to us.

And I've actually never regretted that.

So you've got little Evan now.

You're holding him for the first time.

And I wish I could say that I gave him a good send-off like we did with Henry, but poor little Evan.

It was very... I've always felt guilty about that as well, that I was in such distress.

I always do actually think of Evan.

I always think, oh, little Evan was a real middle child because he didn't get his special time.

You know, he came and went in the middle of it all in this blur of 10 days.

After Evan died...

I actually never saw, I didn't have any special time with him.

We never saw him again.

Whereas with Henry, we spent two days with him after he passed.

And I was obviously, you know, throwing everything into Jasper as well.

So Evan's passing was very, well, obviously they're all very sad, but I feel great sadness over Evan.

But after Evan died, the next day we came back into the hospital.

And I have to say that when Evan was sick for three days before he passed, little Jasper was doing brilliantly.

And again, I was so happy that Jasper gave us that time.

Jasper didn't take any attention away at that stage.