Sophie Smith

And as he stroked his head, we all looked at the numbers and saw them all even out and his heart rate came back to normal.

And it was like he really, you know, that was actually helping him.

So we used to...

Yeah, we were there and did what we could.

Even like the first hold was within his humidity crib, through the windows, the nurse said, look, I've just got to change his sheets.

Just put your hands in and just hold him.

So I literally was holding him like this, a little bit up, just as they were changing his sheets.

And it was just so wonderful to feel his weight and his little body wriggling around.

Oh, he was so beautiful.

He was such a sweet little boy.

He was so sweet.

And he had such spirit, you know.

He opened his eyes two days after Evan died.

We were in and we were sitting by his crib and he had his little face down and then he moved his... Oh, I think the nurse moved his head and suddenly we saw this big...

black, beady eye, wide open.

And both Ash and I went, oh!

And then I remember Ash saying, hello, darling.

Hello, Jasper.

And we felt like we could connect with him on a whole new level once his eyes opened.

And then he got to, you know, we felt like he could even hear our...