Sophie Smith

And I was thinking, oh, I wonder if we can spend Christmas in the room before we come out.

Or, you know, it's Christmas Eve and bring him home for Christmas.

Anyway, they let us stay in that room with Jasper that night.

And that was actually a very, very beautiful time that we had with him.

But going home after that was very hard because Ash had to go back to work.

He was already back at work, actually.

He went back to work after Evan and Jasper were born.

And he used to come into the hospital before work and after work.

And then I would spend all day at the hospital.

And so going home, I was busy organizing Jasper's funeral.

We'd had a funeral for Evan and Henry together.

And then we'd had a funeral for Jasper.

So I was busy organizing Jasper's funeral.

And so that was good because I had a lot to do and I wanted to give him a beautiful funeral.

And then...

And then it was as the weeks passed and I was on maternity leave and sitting at home in this house that was like...

definitely quiet.

And I remember we still had the buggy, the triplet buggy sitting in the hallway.

And we had a cot that we'd already set up in the spare room.

We had two bedrooms.