Spencer Matthews

There's a witness.

I had an old Nickelback song playing really loudly and it was quite a kind of old rock and roll-y... Nostalgic.

Yeah, but like a really cool kind of love song.

And my music choice is really lame.

I'm super commercial, kind of like I'm not cool when it comes to music at all.

But this song just really got me and I kind of started blubbering.

And I just loved the feeling of it.

You know, as I say, I don't try and suppress these feelings.

No.

When they come out, it's wonderful.

I just struggle to be able to draw on them when I would like to, almost.

And actually, I think there's incredible strength in men expressing...

emotions and vulnerability.

And I think that this challenge in many ways was full of that for me.

I think when you're depleted, when you're short on sleep and you've been going for hours and hours and hours and your body and mind really want a break, but you don't afford that for yourself.

You just carry on.

It takes less to get you going.

And yeah, for me, those feelings are really welcome.

I like feeling that way.

Yeah.