Spencer Matthews

You know, it just didn't I didn't gain anything from it.

It didn't get any additional attention.

Yeah, I feared the Antarctic swim for nine months.

In a very real way as well.

You know, I didn't share it much with people because I didn't want to worry my family.

I told her that I had some concern, but again, I kind of... You didn't want to worry her too much, right?

I want her and my mum and, you know, I suppose women in my life, but also, you know, the two main women in my life, but also the rest of my family and friends to know that I can handle this.

You know, like I think it's... I think that, you know, worry and fear...

to me, just mean that you're more likely to do the work to get to a place where you're comfortable taking on a difficult thing.

You know, I think if you don't fear anything, then you're perhaps, you know, not setting your targets far enough.

You know, things should feel big and frightening, I think, if, you know, you spoke about self-discovery.

I'm fascinated by personal development, growth, you know, becoming...

the version of myself that I've always wished I could be, I think it's really important.

I personally gain a lot from attempting to do difficult things.

I think a major point, and there's a massive turning point for me in Project 7, which was completing the Antarctic swim.

However you cut that part of the challenge, it's life-threatening, it's dangerous.

it's hardly ever been attempted by anyone before for good reason.

You know, and you, you, you know why as soon as you're there, it's,

It's overwhelmingly scary.

And we had a briefing the night before specifically about the swim and it made it worse.