Spencer Matthews

And that's before you're even in the water.

So you have to take a, again, a kind of logical view on what's happening.

A lot of trust gets placed in the kit.

I had the choice between a wetsuit that would keep me warm in kind of six degrees in which I'd be able to swim fast or a bigger, more heavy duty wetsuit that would almost certainly make the swim a massive struggle.

But I probably wouldn't be that cold.

I opted for that just because, you know, going hypothermic at that stage in the day would be a big problem for the rest of the day.

And, you know, the night before it, I was in all kinds of, you know, negative headspace.

It was just, it felt dangerous, unnecessary, stupid, foolish, risky.

I was just thinking about my kids.

I was like, you know, what if I actually do get taken by one of these things?

What a stupid way to die, right?

Like nobody's forcing me to be in this water.

And then, at the risk of sounding overly confident or even arrogant, which I hope it doesn't come across, you have to remind yourself that you're the guy for this.

I know I can do it.

Look at what's been achieved in the last 19 days.

This is the person I've always wanted to be.

Of course it's going to be hard, but don't be too surprised.

That's why we're here.

And be calm and focused one stroke after the next and just handle it.

If you're not going to handle it, nobody's going to handle it for you.