Spencer Matthews

And you can choose to suffer for two hours worrying about all kinds of stuff, or you can just try your absolute best to be calm.

And that's really hard.

I've no idea.

Marrying an amazing woman who I want to be better for, I think, has been very helpful.

I've always wanted to.

No, but genuinely, the person I used to be isn't good enough for my wife.

You know.

She's honestly, I don't mean to sound overly soppy, she's got it all.

She's a very special person and she lights up rooms that she walks into.

She's immensely popular.

I've never met anyone really that doesn't immediately warm to her.

Incredible sense of humor.

And very beautiful.

And you only have to spend, you know, a few hours with her around her kids to just see what a special mother she is as well.

You know, completely selfless and very special.

And I made a very conscious effort to become better when I first met her.

I had big problems with alcohol.

I think you'll probably remember on the jump, I was a very heavy drinker.

My bar bill at the end of the jump was like nothing short of astounding.

I spent the majority of my fee, I think, on the bar bill.