Spencer Matthews

I was pretty generous back in the day as well with everyone.

I was like, in order to entice people to drink with me more, I would just pay for everything.

And I hope the generosity has not changed too much, but I drink an awful lot less, so it's far less expensive.

But I essentially went sober for her initially.

It then immediately almost became for me as well.

I had no idea the profound impact that that would have on my life.

But initially it was, you know, I don't mind saying for her, not at her request, by the way.

I could just see the relationship slipping.

I could see that she would lose interest in me and, you know, put me on some scrap heap somewhere if I didn't make an actual change to my own health.

Yeah.

I think it was...

The fear of losing her was quite real.

Whereas, you know, I hope I'm not offending anyone, but I've never felt that before in previous relationships.

You know, I was quite selfish and I would do, you know, I'd go out and drink and stay out all night and do whatever I wanted really.

And, you know, if it didn't work, it didn't work.

And that was that.

You know, I've never considered marrying anyone but Vogue.

Thoughts never crossed my mind, you know.

And I was young, obviously.

And, you know, I'm not sure all the Maiden Chelsea stuff helped me much.