Spencer Matthews

You know, I have lived a life of extraordinary privilege.

But, you know, I'm trying to put myself in difficult positions a lot of the time to really understand.

And that came out in my feelings during Project 7 was that, you know, is it because I've had, Michael aside, you know, a very lucky, easy life, shall we say, that I enjoy the pain?

Because I do.

I like it.

Like, genuinely, I enjoy... When the challenge...

was going pear-shaped and when it was rough as hell, I would come alive then.

And I thought to myself, I love this feeling.

You know, it's exciting and it feels good because it's, you know, personal trauma or, you know, my brother's death aside, I have had an easy life and I think it's nice to rough it up a bit sometimes.

There's been a shift in that.

There was probably a conscious effort before.

Less so now.

I think the distance between my former self and me now is such that that's no longer necessary for me to really think about.

And, in fact, I started dropping it a bit when I've been doing press around Project 7 because it makes less and less sense to me, this whole...

I want to be different to how I used to, because I am different, so I don't need to keep talking about it.

It's been a long time now, right?

It's been ages, yeah.

And I think I'm very much in my own lane.

That's nice.

I pay very little attention to my competition, really, if there is any.