Spencer Matthews

I think if you are, if you have my kind of nature, call it an addictive nature or an alcoholic nature or whatever you want to call it.

There's always, it's a slippery slope, always will be.

I think the difference is responsibility and all of the good work that you do.

I think me going out and destroying myself for days on end is going to get in the way of my business.

It's going to get in the way of my career.

It's going to get in the way of my marriage.

It's not a good example for my children.

I think having kids makes quite a big difference.

My kids have never seen me drunk and they never will, hopefully.

I had a lot less on.

I had a lot of turbulence in my mind before.

I was lazy as well.

I didn't try.

I didn't push myself.

I didn't have the aspirations I have now.

Before Vogue and kids, I was pretty loose.

I was just spiraling kind of all the time.

And you think it's fun.

But it's not, you know, and I think, you know, firstly, what we spoke about earlier, you know, wanting to show up for Vogue, wanting to prove to Vogue that I wasn't some, you know, drunk loser was important to me.

Then, you know, I wasn't sober for long before starting a business.