Stace Don

I had no one.

So I've gone through the pregnancy on my own, not telling anyone, scared.

That was hard because I feel like everything has just been tainted.

You know, all the experience.

He used to tell me as well that he's given me something that no one else would be able to give me.

and like all the way all the way through like my daughter it's like yeah it's because i could never have another child now because i'd never wanted to feel like an outcast you know so things like that sat on sat on me but um i got back i went through the pregnancy and every time i went to scans and stuff i'm like is she disabled it's like it was embedded in my head that there was going to be something wrong with her complications

But I didn't understand all that.

I was way too young.

I was like, I wasn't mature for my age at all.

Still a child.

So I went through all that on my own.

And then my daughter, I gave birth to my daughter and she was perfect.

And I was happy, but I just was so adamant there was something wrong with her, but no one knew what they were looking for.

You know, so I couldn't tell them what they were looking for.

And then I'm expecting him to run through the hospital.

The more time got on after I gave birth to her, I was expecting him to turn up at my mum's or something, you know.

Like, why don't you come back to Essex?

Because that was the game plan that I had to do.

But he didn't.

And then when my daughter was two...