Steph Claire Smith

I think I genuinely have a pretty curved back and I... And a very muscly bottom.

And I think... But I think what that did to me was it kind of just...

was like, oh, is that what people think, especially teachers, is that what people think of me, of that I'm doing?

And it's kind of like what they say about when your child is being like mean or rude or whatever, you label their behaviour but you don't label them as being, like as a mean person.

Like they might be being mean or have done a mean act but they're not mean.

For me, I think that like innately...

imprinted on me that like that's what's obvious to people that I care about and so I'm just going to care about it because it's the way I am or whatever.

Which is getting attention.

Right, which is getting attention.

And also for me it planted an insecurity in my stomach which like is the leanest part of my entire body and always has been genetically no matter what I've done.

But even still because of the curve in my back,

my stomach curves forward.

Like if I'm wearing like a bodycon, for example, looking on the side, because of the curving my back, obviously my stomach also does the same curvature.

But I can't even tell you for how long, if I ever saw a photo of me from the side or whatever, that I looked at my stomach and thought of her comment and thought that this is because I've been standing a certain way my whole life that I have created this problem for myself.

So dumb.

Like, it's just so, so stupid.

But it was something that ate me up when I was really in the depths as well with my, like, body insecurities and stuff like that.

And there's no way I would... Like, as in, like, I don't... Again, my stomach for me was actually, like, probably the leanest part of me.

So for that to still have had an issue was very problematic.

And it's just...