Sterling K. Brown

You know what I'm saying?

She's fraught trying to get stuff done.

Yeah.

So she goes, puts clothes on him.

And the last time I saw him, I got a split level house.

So you come in the front door, you can go upstairs or downstairs.

The paramedics come in, they got the gurney, they get my dad out of the bedroom and they're taking him down the steps.

And as they're taking him down the steps, my man just winks at me real quick.

Like one wink.

And that was the last time I ever saw him.

Because they didn't want me to go to the hospital.

They thought it might be too much.

For the next few weeks, people are bringing food.

And, you know, I'm so sorry.

And I think when you're 10, what you want is to get back to some sense of normalcy as quickly as possible.

It's weird to have people cry over you or extend too much.

Because I think also being a boy slash now you have to be a man, there's this idea that I got to keep together.

I had never seen my mom cry.

Until then.

That's the first time I saw Arlene lose it.