Tana Mongeau

I deeply believe these ideologies that no one was going to listen to me.

No one was going to care.

I wasn't going to be interesting.

I wasn't going to be funny.

I wasn't going to be social.

I wasn't going to be all of the things that

and I was going to lose everything that I had amassed had I like became sober and boring.

I thought sober equated to boring.

I thought sober equated to unfunny.

I thought sober equated to so many things.

And I thought that being the girl with the testimony was corny.

I thought that it was like, Oh my God, how embarrassing.

And like just all those things.

And the reality of it all was like being the girl with the testimony and the girl who like loves being sober is the coolest thing in the world.

And like,

it was very cool in the beginning to start seeing that as well like i brooke and i were doing a meet and greet in um amsterdam and this girl came up to me tears in her eyes they were so blue they were so piercing she grabs my hands and she looks at me and she says i want you to know my parents would not have a daughter if it wasn't for you

and you got me sober and it was just this like and we hugged each other and it was just this moment where I started to realize like now not only have I like done this for myself and my the fans are so fucking amazing and reassuring me that they do care about anything that I have to say and all these ideologies weren't true but also that I'm like helping this generation believe that like you can be sober and still dynamic and interesting and still have fun that's another huge thing you think like

all my friends are drinking and i'm not gonna like make new friends and like i'm not gonna have any fun in these environments anymore and like all these things it's not true i wish i had just done it sooner but i i couldn't poor thing how did getting sober affect your relationships

It made them so much better.

Jesus Christ.