Tana Mongeau

Like just, I became a person I was proud of.

I don't think I was ever a person that I was proud of.

I don't think I was a friend, a business woman, a girlfriend, anything that I was proud of.

And like,

that did help so much with makoa and also amari and all my friends where it's like wow i'm doing things with them now that i'm going to remember forever and i'm like it's so meaningful i get to do all these meaningful things and i get to show up for them and i get to like just be this person that i always wanted to be but my traumas were holding me back did it

Yes.

I almost felt like I was like an e-network casting director and I was recasting eras of my life.

I was like, you're out, you're in, you're out.

Like I... Because...

you wake up, like you wake up and you start seeing your life and it's no longer in black and white.

And for so long, I think that I cared so much.

It's not that I actively chose to care, but I was choosing entertainment value over morality.

Like if you're a good time and we're getting drunk together and whatever, like that was as far as it went for me.

And I don't think that I had the capacity to, I was trying to keep myself alive.

Like, you know what I mean?

Like, so it's like,

I wasn't caring, like I couldn't, I didn't have the bandwidth to like really care about morals and all of these people around me and all of these things.

And yeah, I woke up and I realized I outgrew so much and that's okay.

And it's no bad blood to any of those people.

It's like, I hope you go, maybe you need to also maybe get sober.