Tana Mongeau

And I hope that you also build a beautiful life for yourself, but it's not gonna be from my living room.

Your boyfriend, Makoa.

Yeah.

Like, I think that I didn't realize this at the time, but my childhood made me believe that love was something you had to earn and that love was a roller coaster.

That like you had in these low moments, you were just working for the high ones again.

And toxic love is so similar to me to addiction, to drug addiction, because you're like in these lows and you're chasing the next hit of the highs and like whatever.

And I didn't believe that like someone...

could love me unless I had to work for it and earn it.

And it fostered such toxic relationships and attachments.

And I think that I, a lot of unrequited love where I loved people who maybe didn't love me back because I was just so happy to have that like attention or that thing I could fight for or whatever that is.

And it really wasn't until I met Makoa that I realized how my ideals towards love were so toxic.

And the first like,

year of our relationship was also him patiently sitting beside me while I unlearned a lot of things and had to become a different partner that I had never been before.

Well, that lawsuit was crazy.

Yes.

I mean, I can.

I've talked about it a decent amount, but like...

It was actually, it was funny.

It was right around the time that you and I did our Cory and Dottie episode.

I woke up one day to my parents were suing me for slander for what I had said about them on my MTV show.