Tana Mongeau

But that's narcissism.

They're sick, you know.

And it did reaffirm to me that that was like all they ever wanted was that money.

And it was able to be a finite point for me because that was the moment that I finally went no contact and where I was like, and it wasn't until we were no contact.

I ended up settling in that case, though, which sucked for me really bad.

And I was talking about this actually with Amari yesterday in the car, weirdly, because basically I was not mentally strong enough at the time.

And it was during COVID and I will always be very thankful for that because it was all via Zoom.

And I can imagine how much more the trauma would have been had it been in person and I had to face them.

And I had to call every person and teacher and everyone from my childhood to get them to try to make cases for me and medical subpoenas and all of these things.

And then it would have gone public.

And I think that I couldn't have handled that.

And their lawyers were so awful.

You know what I mean?

Like, like my dad was in the Vietnam war and they're sitting there saying like, you really think that everyone's going to believe you who just does stuff for views over a war veteran?

Do you think that like, and then that's the like pain of being like, what if no one ever believes me?

And finally I came to the conclusion with my lawyers that like,

I was going to kill myself, whether intentionally or I just overdosed at that time to like whether intentionally or unintentionally.

You know, I was this.

It wasn't sustainable for me sanity wise to continue to do it.

So I had to write them a big fat fucking check.