Tana Mongeau

It was like making the mistake and then having to make the apology video and learning that culture.

Oh, my God.

I get a cigarette.

I'm like, back in my day.

Like, it just...

All of these things were being figured out for the first time.

And you learn that.

And if you're not in a good headspace...

you start to like compartmentalize the hate and just think that any attention is good attention.

And when you have a million people around you kind of like feeding into that notion, it can be such a scary snowball.

It's so hard, Alex, to give you anecdotal answers because it was everything.

And it almost wasn't... One thing that I will say is that so much of it was not... I'm not going to give myself the credit that I was this mastermind scheming so much.

It was almost just the way I was living.

I think that I was just...

I guess the difference is, is that a lot of other people possessed a lot of discretion and they knew like maybe this like party last night where we all did a bunch of drugs.

I'm not going to talk about it online tomorrow because I have discretion and I care about my reputation and I have self-worth and I have parents, right?

Like all of these things, whereas I was like, no one's doing this and I'm just going to share it all.

And like, you know what I mean?

Like almost like a who cares mindset.

It was just kind of like anything goes.