Taylor Tomlinson

And I had, I mean, I had so much stuff to get through just with like the sex before marriage of it all.

Like before we even get to being queer, like just even like,

straight sex was like evil.

So like I had to, yeah, I had to like wade through all of that for years before I was even able to like get through that.

And so I think finally getting to a place where I felt like I was myself and like,

being totally honest with everybody in my life and comfortable with who I was and what I believed and how I identified, like it made it a lot easier for me to speak about growing up religious and certain things that were difficult and harmful for me, um, from a more like nuanced understanding, playful place.

Cause I think people can tell when you go out on stage and you talk about things that you haven't like fully processed or healed from yet.

And it's,

it can be some people are really good at it and then I think sometimes it makes the audience just feel really uncomfortable and like you are just sort of putting them through a therapy session so I'm always worried about doing that so I'm always like okay I'm going to do jokes about things once I've processed them so that I'm bringing like a completed thought yeah because there is this really nice ability of bringing up

Yeah.

yeah and there's certainly like towards the end there's like one part where I think I'm just sort of saying the thing like but I I try not to do that throughout because to me it's a comedy special first and foremost yeah um

But to me, the specials and movies and TV shows and whatever else are the ones, the ones that stick with me are the ones that are very funny but are also saying something or hitting something for me personally that have that staying power in a way that maybe just like an hour of jokes doesn't always.

But it also has so much to do with where you are in your life when you see something.

Like there have been,

Shows and movies and specials that I've watched when I was going through a really hard time that Just are really important to me because I was going through such a hard time and it distracted me Yeah, and it's not even so much about the subject matter.

But yeah, I think this hour it was it just I don't know this hour was a lot of things for me because I I already kind of said this but I

I was worried when I was younger that I was just good at, well, I started when I was a teenager doing standup in churches.

And so the first couple of years I was doing standup, it was like, am I just good because I'm young and clean?

And am I just good for,

a church comedian and then it was like okay i'm in the clubs but am i still just good because i'm young and clean and then it was like okay you're not clean anymore are you just good for being young yeah and it took me up until i was like you know until now until i was like 30 that i was like okay i think i've i think i've proven you know i'm like okay this is my fourth special yeah