Taylor Tomlinson

And I'm terrified.

And I've gone back and forth about how panicked I am.

Why?

Because on the one hand, what I realized like today was when I was younger –

I was so scared that I was just good at standup for my age.

And it took me 16 years, this long, to be like, I think I'm good at it now.

I think I'm just regular good at it.

But for years I was like, oh, I think I'm just good for my age.

And I'm worried about that with the book where I'm worried that it'll come out and people will be like, this is so good for a comedian.

Or they'll think it's bad.

That's also a very real possibility.

But I'm scared that people will say, this is pretty good considering she's a clown.

You know, like that's the best I can hope for.

I know.

And I wonder if you had any of that writing books or if you were just like, this is just an extension of my standup.

I'm just, these are bits.

Well, and I can't believe, I mean, I don't know specifically who, but I've just heard that a lot of people don't write their own books in show business.

What's the point of that?

Why would you do that?

I mean, I guess if you're a big actor or something, it's just sort of a cash grab, but I'm like the- A million dollar advance.