Terry Boers

So, you know, I do it.

Column experience is better than I can probably at this point.

No, you're doing fine.

I think there's a – reach a breaking point.

And I reached it a while ago just in general.

And then when this other breaking point hit me, as hard as it hit me, I had a lot of time to reflect, a lot of time to think about, a lot of time – because nothing was ever announced.

Nothing was ever said publicly or anything about it.

So I could have changed my mind at any point.

And I don't think at this point I can rely on it.

I can't do it.

I can't possibly face this again because missing what I missed this year, including the Cubs –

Although I was there for a week, wasn't I?

The World Series opener.

I just, it was tough on me in every way possible, not only physically but mentally.

And I hate to be away.

I just hate to miss what we missed, what I missed.

And I thank Dan and everybody who filled in.

But I don't ever want to face that again.

So we will gradually, I have plenty to do in this last month or so here.

I have doctor appointments and everything else that continues to go on.