Thais Gibson

And I really struggled with about a six-year daily use of opioids and tried inpatient rehab and outpatient rehab and had all of these things come up.

And what was really interesting is,

I felt like life was really hard and I felt like relationships were really hard at that point.

And I tried a lot of things that weren't really working.

And I was in school for psychology.

And like maybe on the outside, my life looked like you're doing well, you're okay.

But on the inside, I was like a mess, like I was really hurting.

And I was in a psych class and I was seriously thinking like, I think I need to leave school.

Like, I don't think I can take this, handle this.

And somebody said to me in a class, they were like, it wasn't even the professor, it was a student.

And he said, oh, your conscious mind can't outwell or overpower your subconscious mind.

And for me, that was like so powerful because I was sitting there going, oh, so you're telling me that like all the times I say I'm going to get clean, I'm going to change my life.

I'm going to, you know, stop all these these really painful things that I'm doing.

I'm going to delete people's numbers from my phone.

I'm going to change.

And then I don't.

It's not that I'm weak or powerless or not capable.

It's that like this is actually what's going on.

It's my subconscious mind.

So I originally started this work by getting sober and then being obsessed with learning about the subconscious mind and the ego and how this works from sort of this like spiritual perspective to how do we sort of transcend those patterns and those conditions.