The Host

For a while, I had a fear of being unlovable. That I just... I wouldn't find anybody who found me worthy. Not even one person. And I think that a way of tackling that fear and addressing that fear was putting myself out there. What does that mean? What does it mean to put yourself out there? I think it means...

championing your personality, your quirks, your weirdness, your awkwardness, your tendencies to not feel social, your tendencies to want alone time, your tendencies to want to fit in and knowing that that's not, that's not why somebody is going to accept you. They're probably going to accept you for the person that you are. And I think that was a big realization for me.

championing your personality, your quirks, your weirdness, your awkwardness, your tendencies to not feel social, your tendencies to want alone time, your tendencies to want to fit in and knowing that that's not, that's not why somebody is going to accept you. They're probably going to accept you for the person that you are. And I think that was a big realization for me.

championing your personality, your quirks, your weirdness, your awkwardness, your tendencies to not feel social, your tendencies to want alone time, your tendencies to want to fit in and knowing that that's not, that's not why somebody is going to accept you. They're probably going to accept you for the person that you are. And I think that was a big realization for me.

Like I am running away from the person that I am and I'm trying to craft a skin of a person that I'm just not, I'm just like not that person. And that was another fear. Oh, my goodness, right? Like, you would think that that would solve the problem. Okay, you feel unlovable. Change yourself. Get swole. Get alpha. And then you're going to have the baddies in Dubai. Oh, you're good. Go ahead.

Like I am running away from the person that I am and I'm trying to craft a skin of a person that I'm just not, I'm just like not that person. And that was another fear. Oh, my goodness, right? Like, you would think that that would solve the problem. Okay, you feel unlovable. Change yourself. Get swole. Get alpha. And then you're going to have the baddies in Dubai. Oh, you're good. Go ahead.

Like I am running away from the person that I am and I'm trying to craft a skin of a person that I'm just not, I'm just like not that person. And that was another fear. Oh, my goodness, right? Like, you would think that that would solve the problem. Okay, you feel unlovable. Change yourself. Get swole. Get alpha. And then you're going to have the baddies in Dubai. Oh, you're good. Go ahead.

It kind of just, like, stops you in place. You're like, okay, that's what's going to address the problem.

It kind of just, like, stops you in place. You're like, okay, that's what's going to address the problem.

It kind of just, like, stops you in place. You're like, okay, that's what's going to address the problem.

But once you start changing in that realm and it's not authentic to who you are, then you have another fear that pops up and you're like, wait a minute, I'm not being myself. And what I'm doing instead is I'm attracting people into my life that are attracted to this character of who I've become, but they're not attracted to me. They don't like me. They like the show I'm putting on.

But once you start changing in that realm and it's not authentic to who you are, then you have another fear that pops up and you're like, wait a minute, I'm not being myself. And what I'm doing instead is I'm attracting people into my life that are attracted to this character of who I've become, but they're not attracted to me. They don't like me. They like the show I'm putting on.

But once you start changing in that realm and it's not authentic to who you are, then you have another fear that pops up and you're like, wait a minute, I'm not being myself. And what I'm doing instead is I'm attracting people into my life that are attracted to this character of who I've become, but they're not attracted to me. They don't like me. They like the show I'm putting on.

The Zerky show you're putting on. Oh, weird, weird thought to have. The relationships that scare you the most because of how easy they are or how different somebody is, I feel like entertaining them is so important. The experiences that you know if you did them, you would challenge yourself. You would challenge who you think you are. Those are the experiences that change your life.

The Zerky show you're putting on. Oh, weird, weird thought to have. The relationships that scare you the most because of how easy they are or how different somebody is, I feel like entertaining them is so important. The experiences that you know if you did them, you would challenge yourself. You would challenge who you think you are. Those are the experiences that change your life.

The Zerky show you're putting on. Oh, weird, weird thought to have. The relationships that scare you the most because of how easy they are or how different somebody is, I feel like entertaining them is so important. The experiences that you know if you did them, you would challenge yourself. You would challenge who you think you are. Those are the experiences that change your life.

Fear, fear comes in different forms. I don't think it's a one shoe that fits all, right? It's not like a slipper. It comes in different types of shoes like Jordans. It comes in different, there's Jordan 1, 2, 3, 4s. I used to always want the Jordan 4s. One day, please. It is so different. There are so many different kinds of fears. Maybe you have a fear that looms over Your day-to-day.

Fear, fear comes in different forms. I don't think it's a one shoe that fits all, right? It's not like a slipper. It comes in different types of shoes like Jordans. It comes in different, there's Jordan 1, 2, 3, 4s. I used to always want the Jordan 4s. One day, please. It is so different. There are so many different kinds of fears. Maybe you have a fear that looms over Your day-to-day.

Fear, fear comes in different forms. I don't think it's a one shoe that fits all, right? It's not like a slipper. It comes in different types of shoes like Jordans. It comes in different, there's Jordan 1, 2, 3, 4s. I used to always want the Jordan 4s. One day, please. It is so different. There are so many different kinds of fears. Maybe you have a fear that looms over Your day-to-day.

Maybe that fear is letting yourself down. You're like, I really don't want to let myself down. I feel like in the past I've done that. Maybe that fear is the fear of letting others down. And that looms over, it looms over like a lot of the conscious decisions that you make. Because there's also fears like, you know, okay, I have a fear of being gone tomorrow and being like, no, I wanted to, ugh.