The Host

Maybe that fear is letting yourself down. You're like, I really don't want to let myself down. I feel like in the past I've done that. Maybe that fear is the fear of letting others down. And that looms over, it looms over like a lot of the conscious decisions that you make. Because there's also fears like, you know, okay, I have a fear of being gone tomorrow and being like, no, I wanted to, ugh.

Maybe that fear is letting yourself down. You're like, I really don't want to let myself down. I feel like in the past I've done that. Maybe that fear is the fear of letting others down. And that looms over, it looms over like a lot of the conscious decisions that you make. Because there's also fears like, you know, okay, I have a fear of being gone tomorrow and being like, no, I wanted to, ugh.

I still wanted to try a Dubai chocolate bar. I didn't even have a chance to do that. I wanted to try the lava cake at Chili's. I didn't even get to try that when I went, you know, but that fear isn't one that is like consciously like in my frontal lobe where I'm like, Ooh, like I'm, I'm not thinking about it every single day. It's more of in the back of my mind. It's kind of a, in an archive.

I still wanted to try a Dubai chocolate bar. I didn't even have a chance to do that. I wanted to try the lava cake at Chili's. I didn't even get to try that when I went, you know, but that fear isn't one that is like consciously like in my frontal lobe where I'm like, Ooh, like I'm, I'm not thinking about it every single day. It's more of in the back of my mind. It's kind of a, in an archive.

I still wanted to try a Dubai chocolate bar. I didn't even have a chance to do that. I wanted to try the lava cake at Chili's. I didn't even get to try that when I went, you know, but that fear isn't one that is like consciously like in my frontal lobe where I'm like, Ooh, like I'm, I'm not thinking about it every single day. It's more of in the back of my mind. It's kind of a, in an archive.

And there's also like fear that we just get, I think, when we compare ourselves to other people. Oh gosh, like the fear that I'm not doing enough, I'm not good enough. There's like a standard maybe that you see amongst your generation, amongst people that look like you. And you feel almost like You feel like you're missing out. Oh, that's what I'm trying to say.

And there's also like fear that we just get, I think, when we compare ourselves to other people. Oh gosh, like the fear that I'm not doing enough, I'm not good enough. There's like a standard maybe that you see amongst your generation, amongst people that look like you. And you feel almost like You feel like you're missing out. Oh, that's what I'm trying to say.

And there's also like fear that we just get, I think, when we compare ourselves to other people. Oh gosh, like the fear that I'm not doing enough, I'm not good enough. There's like a standard maybe that you see amongst your generation, amongst people that look like you. And you feel almost like You feel like you're missing out. Oh, that's what I'm trying to say.

You need to address the fear of missing out. The fear of missing out ruled over my life. It ruled over my life for a good four years. It started when I went to community college, when I graduated high school in 2020, which was awesome. Not really. I had one of those graduations, like a car parade. Bruh. It was an interesting time.

You need to address the fear of missing out. The fear of missing out ruled over my life. It ruled over my life for a good four years. It started when I went to community college, when I graduated high school in 2020, which was awesome. Not really. I had one of those graduations, like a car parade. Bruh. It was an interesting time.

You need to address the fear of missing out. The fear of missing out ruled over my life. It ruled over my life for a good four years. It started when I went to community college, when I graduated high school in 2020, which was awesome. Not really. I had one of those graduations, like a car parade. Bruh. It was an interesting time.

And I remember after I graduated high school, I went to community college because I had no idea what I wanted to do. I had zero clue. And I kind of used community college as like a buffer zone. I'm like, oh, I'm going to take a gap year and stack my money. I don't know one person who took a gap year and stacked their money. No, no, no. A lot of people have done that.

And I remember after I graduated high school, I went to community college because I had no idea what I wanted to do. I had zero clue. And I kind of used community college as like a buffer zone. I'm like, oh, I'm going to take a gap year and stack my money. I don't know one person who took a gap year and stacked their money. No, no, no. A lot of people have done that.

And I remember after I graduated high school, I went to community college because I had no idea what I wanted to do. I had zero clue. And I kind of used community college as like a buffer zone. I'm like, oh, I'm going to take a gap year and stack my money. I don't know one person who took a gap year and stacked their money. No, no, no. A lot of people have done that.

But I was like, okay, I'm going to be different. I'm actually going to take community college seriously. I'm going to grind this. I remember when I... When I would, like, go to sleep, I would go on Snapchat and just, like, watch some of my friends' stories. I would just see, like, what's up, you know? And everybody seemed like they were having such a, oh my gosh, such a blast, such a good time.

But I was like, okay, I'm going to be different. I'm actually going to take community college seriously. I'm going to grind this. I remember when I... When I would, like, go to sleep, I would go on Snapchat and just, like, watch some of my friends' stories. I would just see, like, what's up, you know? And everybody seemed like they were having such a, oh my gosh, such a blast, such a good time.

But I was like, okay, I'm going to be different. I'm actually going to take community college seriously. I'm going to grind this. I remember when I... When I would, like, go to sleep, I would go on Snapchat and just, like, watch some of my friends' stories. I would just see, like, what's up, you know? And everybody seemed like they were having such a, oh my gosh, such a blast, such a good time.

Meanwhile, my life was all online. Like, I had all of my classes online. I never stepped foot in my campus, like, ever. And also, I worked, like... 20, 30 hours a week. So when I wasn't doing school and I wasn't doing coursework, I was just grinding at like a retail job, which it was fine. It was okay. Mentally, it was a little bit rough.

Meanwhile, my life was all online. Like, I had all of my classes online. I never stepped foot in my campus, like, ever. And also, I worked, like... 20, 30 hours a week. So when I wasn't doing school and I wasn't doing coursework, I was just grinding at like a retail job, which it was fine. It was okay. Mentally, it was a little bit rough.

Meanwhile, my life was all online. Like, I had all of my classes online. I never stepped foot in my campus, like, ever. And also, I worked, like... 20, 30 hours a week. So when I wasn't doing school and I wasn't doing coursework, I was just grinding at like a retail job, which it was fine. It was okay. Mentally, it was a little bit rough.