Theo Padnos

Our intentions are good, so tell the CIA whatever you want to tell them. When they speak to their journalist, they go... You know, please, in their minds, they're saying, and relay all this to your paymasters at the CIA, you Jew. That's what they're thinking, but they're not saying that. You are Jewish, right? I have a Jewish father, but I was not raised as a Jew.

Our intentions are good, so tell the CIA whatever you want to tell them. When they speak to their journalist, they go... You know, please, in their minds, they're saying, and relay all this to your paymasters at the CIA, you Jew. That's what they're thinking, but they're not saying that. You are Jewish, right? I have a Jewish father, but I was not raised as a Jew.

No, but my cellmate, I had a cellmate for a little while. a guy called Schreier, who's American, who himself was a Jew. I didn't know this at the time, but we all have secrets, you know? There's a lot of stuff you don't want to tell these guys, because you don't know how they're going to react. And in fact- But you have a paper trail.

No, but my cellmate, I had a cellmate for a little while. a guy called Schreier, who's American, who himself was a Jew. I didn't know this at the time, but we all have secrets, you know? There's a lot of stuff you don't want to tell these guys, because you don't know how they're going to react. And in fact- But you have a paper trail.

No, but my cellmate, I had a cellmate for a little while. a guy called Schreier, who's American, who himself was a Jew. I didn't know this at the time, but we all have secrets, you know? There's a lot of stuff you don't want to tell these guys, because you don't know how they're going to react. And in fact- But you have a paper trail.

Of course. The worst thing that I did was I wrote a book called Undercover Muslim. In fact, Adnani did discover this. And he came into my cell at one point and he said, we know you've written a book. He goes, what was the title of your stupid book, you idiot? I'm like, gee, I forget. And I told him a lie. I could not utter those words. It's called undercover Muslim.

Of course. The worst thing that I did was I wrote a book called Undercover Muslim. In fact, Adnani did discover this. And he came into my cell at one point and he said, we know you've written a book. He goes, what was the title of your stupid book, you idiot? I'm like, gee, I forget. And I told him a lie. I could not utter those words. It's called undercover Muslim.

Of course. The worst thing that I did was I wrote a book called Undercover Muslim. In fact, Adnani did discover this. And he came into my cell at one point and he said, we know you've written a book. He goes, what was the title of your stupid book, you idiot? I'm like, gee, I forget. And I told him a lie. I could not utter those words. It's called undercover Muslim.

But he said to his friends who were there, he said, he's been spying on our brothers in Yemen. I'm like, I guess that's the end. They know everything.

But he said to his friends who were there, he said, he's been spying on our brothers in Yemen. I'm like, I guess that's the end. They know everything.

But he said to his friends who were there, he said, he's been spying on our brothers in Yemen. I'm like, I guess that's the end. They know everything.

The reason why I wanted to talk about the suicide is not because it was an expression of my despair. It's a systematic thing they do to everybody. They want everybody to give up on the life that you're living now. Completely die to your past and to your names. They give you like a new name. And for the first like year and a half, I was dirt. I was filth. That was the name? Yeah.

The reason why I wanted to talk about the suicide is not because it was an expression of my despair. It's a systematic thing they do to everybody. They want everybody to give up on the life that you're living now. Completely die to your past and to your names. They give you like a new name. And for the first like year and a half, I was dirt. I was filth. That was the name? Yeah.

The reason why I wanted to talk about the suicide is not because it was an expression of my despair. It's a systematic thing they do to everybody. They want everybody to give up on the life that you're living now. Completely die to your past and to your names. They give you like a new name. And for the first like year and a half, I was dirt. I was filth. That was the name? Yeah.

In Arabic. So you die to your past in order for you to reawaken someday with an orientation as they are oriented. All the hostages converted without exception. Did you? And I never did convert. You didn't even fake a conversion. I did not fake a conversion, nothing. If they had a gun to my head and they said, we will spare you, but you have to convert, I would have done it.

In Arabic. So you die to your past in order for you to reawaken someday with an orientation as they are oriented. All the hostages converted without exception. Did you? And I never did convert. You didn't even fake a conversion. I did not fake a conversion, nothing. If they had a gun to my head and they said, we will spare you, but you have to convert, I would have done it.

In Arabic. So you die to your past in order for you to reawaken someday with an orientation as they are oriented. All the hostages converted without exception. Did you? And I never did convert. You didn't even fake a conversion. I did not fake a conversion, nothing. If they had a gun to my head and they said, we will spare you, but you have to convert, I would have done it.

But they never came to that. At first, as I say, I was very ashamed of what they were doing to me, the condition to which they reduced me. I blame myself for having gone to Syria in the first place. What was I thinking? I wasn't a success in the journalism world by any means. And I imagined that I was going to go in there and start sending pictures out to editors and blah, That was stupid.

But they never came to that. At first, as I say, I was very ashamed of what they were doing to me, the condition to which they reduced me. I blame myself for having gone to Syria in the first place. What was I thinking? I wasn't a success in the journalism world by any means. And I imagined that I was going to go in there and start sending pictures out to editors and blah, That was stupid.

But they never came to that. At first, as I say, I was very ashamed of what they were doing to me, the condition to which they reduced me. I blame myself for having gone to Syria in the first place. What was I thinking? I wasn't a success in the journalism world by any means. And I imagined that I was going to go in there and start sending pictures out to editors and blah, That was stupid.