Thomas Doherty

It was never filling me.

I didn't have a choice.

What do you mean?

I just wasn't myself.

I completely lost myself.

And it's a kind of weird thing to see when you're like, well, how could you lose something that you don't know?

You know, I think I grew up and all my energy, I was very hypervigilant to my surroundings and what was going on outside.

So I never really like,

properly developed a sense of Thomas you know and I was always very kind of out there and theatrical and very performative and that all kind of just carried through and so I think maybe a year ago

i had a point where uh it became crystal clear what what it was i was trying to do i was trying to fill this void inside of me with other people and no matter how hard you try you will never and so then i stopped doing that and took a took a beat and sat through some

pain you know it's you can't run away from it and i tried it all with everything fame money

And, like, none of it... It just makes everything worse.

And I got to a point where I was like, this is my only way out.

And luckily, I love acting so much, so I can always go back to that.

That's always been very... That's been really stable.

It's been a stability for me.

And I was like, you know what?

I'm going to just go back into that and have this as, like, my friend and just work through things and develop this sense of self and self...

acceptance and self-love um and try and meet all that shame face on because it all just leads to one thing you know you try and avoid this shame by doing this shameful thing and then because of that you're like ashamed and then you want to escape that shame and then you ultimately end up you know so it's like just a downward spiral you went through these like wax and waning periods of like

No, I mean, that's definitely an aspect of it to kind of, again, the inability to, and I'm not trying to like preach.