Thomas Doherty

comparing how my career should be, what I should be, how I should be seen, all that ego stuff.

I think...

What do I think I should have been?

Oh, at the time.

I mean, you always compare yourself to other actors that are doing, which is the worst thing you can possibly do.

But I mean, you look at amazing actors like Chalamet or whoever else was kicking around then.

And they're doing really these amazing films that are going to like award seasons and stuff.

That's what you want.

And so then your ego flares up, and you're insecure, and you're like, oh, no, I want to be cool, and I want to do all this cool stuff.

It was an incredible job, incredible opportunity.

I met incredible people.

I've got best friends to this day.

Have you met Eli?

I have met him.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, just the best.

Yeah, I was just sitting with him and his girlfriend right now.

All of that stuff was definitely symptomatic of a much deeper thing of I...

wasn't able to validate myself ultimately is kind of what I see that now and so the best or the worst place depends where you are in the journey of validation is Hollywood you know because you're getting all this validation you have this opportunity to get all that external validation and no matter how much I got no matter how much I tried it was never