Tommy Metz III

So there's no good side of this. I'm shining a spotlight on myself suffering from spotlight syndrome, but I'm in charge of the light.

So there's no good side of this. I'm shining a spotlight on myself suffering from spotlight syndrome, but I'm in charge of the light.

Something has really gotten through and I'm, I'm finding myself three sentences in to this daymare before I realize what I'm doing. When did it start? You remember when it started? I would like to say there's I tried as hard as I could to find a flashpoint. But it feels I've been really noticing it within the last like three to four weeks.

Something has really gotten through and I'm, I'm finding myself three sentences in to this daymare before I realize what I'm doing. When did it start? You remember when it started? I would like to say there's I tried as hard as I could to find a flashpoint. But it feels I've been really noticing it within the last like three to four weeks.

That was one of them. Yeah. Yes, I performed. I was a closer in the show.

That was one of them. Yeah. Yes, I performed. I was a closer in the show.

And I felt I did a good job. And then I saw the video. Oh, okay. Yeah, I saw the video later. I forget that the video always seems a lot flatter than it felt like during the time. And then... I filled in the void, meaning people stopped talking about the show. It was like a week or two after the show. Oh, so no, let me make this about a month and a half. Then I'm starting to spread back.

And I felt I did a good job. And then I saw the video. Oh, okay. Yeah, I saw the video later. I forget that the video always seems a lot flatter than it felt like during the time. And then... I filled in the void, meaning people stopped talking about the show. It was like a week or two after the show. Oh, so no, let me make this about a month and a half. Then I'm starting to spread back.

So like two weeks after the show, no one's talking about the show anymore other than words like this. But so I filled in all that silence with misremembering. If I'm rational, I can say misremembering glances, misremembering silence. And to the point that I actually apologized to the director and, And she said, I did. And she said, I said, I hope I didn't let you down.

So like two weeks after the show, no one's talking about the show anymore other than words like this. But so I filled in all that silence with misremembering. If I'm rational, I can say misremembering glances, misremembering silence. And to the point that I actually apologized to the director and, And she said, I did. And she said, I said, I hope I didn't let you down.

She says, I haven't watched the video, but the video is always so much flatter and everything. I remember being fun and exciting. Yeah. And I was like, okay, good. But, you know, text or text and you can reread them however you want.

She says, I haven't watched the video, but the video is always so much flatter and everything. I remember being fun and exciting. Yeah. And I was like, okay, good. But, you know, text or text and you can reread them however you want.

Just of that video in particular or just of that performance? You want to keep it detailed?

Just of that video in particular or just of that performance? You want to keep it detailed?

No, but I've heard of it. It was like an MTV. It was on MTV here, right?

No, but I've heard of it. It was like an MTV. It was on MTV here, right?

Well, the answer is none. But irrationally, I think... There's two things going on. There's potentially... I didn't know it at the time, but there's potentially a poor me, poor me, give me compliments. Like I'm fishing. Right. Potentially. Or there's some sort of weird...

Well, the answer is none. But irrationally, I think... There's two things going on. There's potentially... I didn't know it at the time, but there's potentially a poor me, poor me, give me compliments. Like I'm fishing. Right. Potentially. Or there's some sort of weird...

I'm just – instead of saying the word irrational, irrational, irrational over and over again, know that like when I look at it, you said in the cold light of podcast day, when I look at it straight on, I'm able to realize the fallacies. But that's not what happens at night.

I'm just – instead of saying the word irrational, irrational, irrational over and over again, know that like when I look at it, you said in the cold light of podcast day, when I look at it straight on, I'm able to realize the fallacies. But that's not what happens at night.