Tommy Metz III

Right. The – I think there's some sort of power or I think I'm protecting myself in saying I know. We both know but know that I know.

Right. The – I think there's some sort of power or I think I'm protecting myself in saying I know. We both know but know that I know.

That there's something about like – It's tough to, the more damaging part of it, the scariest part is people talking behind my back about things and me seemingly not knowing at all and being like, la, la, la, la, la, la. There's something worse about that. So it's almost like pointing out that I know, or at least bringing up the idea that I think is protecting me in some way.

That there's something about like – It's tough to, the more damaging part of it, the scariest part is people talking behind my back about things and me seemingly not knowing at all and being like, la, la, la, la, la, la. There's something worse about that. So it's almost like pointing out that I know, or at least bringing up the idea that I think is protecting me in some way.

That if I assume people are disappointed in me, then it won't hurt as much if it turns out to be true. And it also won't make me seem naive and just sort of skipping through life when other people are feeling differently about how I'm living my life or my performance. None of that works or makes sense, but that feels right.

That if I assume people are disappointed in me, then it won't hurt as much if it turns out to be true. And it also won't make me seem naive and just sort of skipping through life when other people are feeling differently about how I'm living my life or my performance. None of that works or makes sense, but that feels right.

Yes, that if it's happening behind my back, that I need... Yeah, that in such an uncontrollable situation, for me to at least envision the worst possible scenario, then that does give me some sort of weird... Feeling of control or feeling of agency. You're right. I said it would just be slower. But it only works.

Yes, that if it's happening behind my back, that I need... Yeah, that in such an uncontrollable situation, for me to at least envision the worst possible scenario, then that does give me some sort of weird... Feeling of control or feeling of agency. You're right. I said it would just be slower. But it only works.

I just realized I used all the words you used as if I was coming up with them on my own.

I just realized I used all the words you used as if I was coming up with them on my own.

Right. And that's where I seem to have lost a bit of control. Yeah. I don't even notice. It's like background music. I don't notice that I'm doing it. And the real worry of that is I know myself enough that daymare will become truth. When I'm not looking, I will write down of that performance, well, you can't win them all.

Right. And that's where I seem to have lost a bit of control. Yeah. I don't even notice. It's like background music. I don't notice that I'm doing it. And the real worry of that is I know myself enough that daymare will become truth. When I'm not looking, I will write down of that performance, well, you can't win them all.

Instead of I've twisted something that was wonderful into something painful, but then I decided that was the truth. And that's not the truth. That sucks. So that's why I'm really glad. I mean, the first step is being aware that you were doing it. And I'm on all cylinders. I'm bringing it up in front of a podcast, in front of all of our listeners.

Instead of I've twisted something that was wonderful into something painful, but then I decided that was the truth. And that's not the truth. That sucks. So that's why I'm really glad. I mean, the first step is being aware that you were doing it. And I'm on all cylinders. I'm bringing it up in front of a podcast, in front of all of our listeners.

That I'm going to figure it out myself, you mean?

That I'm going to figure it out myself, you mean?

Right. Right. There has been no change in medication. But yeah, it almost feels like there was. I kind of wish there was. Right.

Right. Right. There has been no change in medication. But yeah, it almost feels like there was. I kind of wish there was. Right.

Right, the animal, mineral, or vegetable of whatever's going on in my dumb face. Isn't that funny? Like, that's funny and horrible. And maybe it's just I... Took my eye. I mean, this is negative ideations. This kind of thing has been something that I used to truck in for a long time.

Right, the animal, mineral, or vegetable of whatever's going on in my dumb face. Isn't that funny? Like, that's funny and horrible. And maybe it's just I... Took my eye. I mean, this is negative ideations. This kind of thing has been something that I used to truck in for a long time.