Tracey Neville

I think I was on autopilot and I didn't feel that I had the people around me that could affect my life.

But afterwards, I felt that was probably the most loneliest time.

And the second loneliest time was probably when Gary, Phil and my mum left Australia.

And I think that as well, I think if, you know, that was dad's dream as well.

And, you know...

you know, would you do a different thing again?

You don't know until you're in that scenario.

I've seen, you know, players' dads die and they've reacted to it in a different way.

And I still now don't think I would have come home.

I think the option was given to me, do you want to go home with your family?

There's no way I would have left that because it wasn't something that I felt I wanted to do.

I was there to do a job and there was nothing I really could do at home because my brothers were obviously supporting my mum at the time.

So it felt that, you know, it was something I wanted to finish.

Like Philip said, my mum, we don't realise how strong my mum was until that particular time.

However, it was my dad that drove me on because he was the one who drove me on in a lot of, you know, he was so passionate, so strong-willed, get in there, get a job done.

He was that sort of guy, you know, you're committed to something, you finish the job off.

And, you know, all our lives, that's what we've had to do.

And I think for him, if I'd have flown home,

he would have thought it was pointless, you know, for him, you know, to watch his little girl, you know, in a World Cup, get the England job, he'd watched his sons, for him, his life was complete, you know, for him, for us, we wanted more of him, we wanted him to see more, but for him, that was his attitude, my life, you know, I've seen everything, even if I go tomorrow, that he lived his life like that, and I think that is something that we, you know, I wish I could do that, but, you know, I don't, I'm a worrier, so...

I wish I lived my life like he did.