Tracey Neville

Throughout my life, my brothers always have protected me.

And they weren't there at that particular time, which I really struggled with.

I just remember they both got on a flight straight away and come out.

And a bit like what the Neville family do, they come in, they cause chaos, and then they get out.

And I think the hardest thing for me was that the support I had in Sydney was then suddenly taken away from me.

And I was left, obviously, in Australia.

And in the end, my partner got on a flight with 24 hours notice and come out.

it just felt i just remember that you know the right thing to do was for my brothers to take my mum home and but then i'd lost everybody at that time and i felt that that was probably one of the hardest times of my life and i think but it also drove us on as a family to and me as a family and obviously out of that now with me retiring has come nev who i attribute to the most important people in my life which was my dad

Gary gets called Nev, Philip gets called Nev and I always get called Nev.

And, you know, I felt that everything that's happened was for a reason.

But in a way, because of the closeness that we had, I felt that I was able to drive on in that particular post and start to achieve, which at first I didn't think I would be able to without the support of my dad, because he's been the biggest mentor to me all my life.

That was a really hard time.

I think for me what it recognised was that the way I'd come into the post was that I wasn't around a team and you talk about team culture and people getting around you in what-if scenarios and that wasn't the case then and it was a very isolated scenario and very lonely but I don't think it actually hit where I felt that I'd lost everything was to laughter and I think when I

I went back and got given the full-time England post.

I think that was when probably for the next year, I felt probably the most loneliest because we were probably going through, in the Roses, the most difficult time.

We haven't got great results.

A lot of players weren't coming into the programme.

We were setting up a new era of the centralised professional programme.

And I think then was probably the loneliest time probably of my life where I really did start to miss my dad.

At the time, through them 10 days in the World Cup,