Ty

But it was the mood swings, the only thing that got me.

And so in my head – and then when I was talking to the lady and she was like, well –

It's because you're talking to what lady, the lady who was giving me the test and talking for a week.

So that woman who did the whole diagnosis and she was talking about how she's like, you know, your mood swings are based off of things not going right in your weird little routine.

So that I won't be able to understand your wife will never be able to understand fully.

She's like, you know, you can explain as much as you can about how.

these things operate in your head and how when one thing is just off it just yeah you know and she's like so these mood swings come across as in like oh you just got something just really frustrated you real quick and it's like it's it's it's always felt more than that and remember you asked me what's wrong with you and remember being that i don't know what's wrong with me yeah and i'm like how do you not know nothing even happened and you're just mad

And it's like, I think because I wasn't paying attention close enough to what was off that made me that extreme.

You know what I mean?

And so like, I was like, when you ask me what's wrong, I don't know.

I have no idea.

All I know is that I'm just really frustrated.

Yeah.

Out of nowhere.

Oh, yeah.

She was like, you know, she's like, but what's really common for your age and being a late, you know, early adult kind of diagnosis is that you are, I rank super high in masking, which she's like, what you've done is you've,

dissected all the things socially growing up and she's like and you know what's acceptable and what's not acceptable it's like that's what that's what makes you not on the other extreme side of this okay to where you know you have to be a certain way to fit in or to seem normal or whatever and and you know socially okay so you do that she's like but inside it's just a chaotic anxiety storm and it doesn't come across externally because you've

done so much you're 30 you've been doing it for so long yeah which is crazy because I remember even being like younger and stuff like you were friends with everybody yeah you know what I mean like everybody liked Ty but it was because I was extroverted I almost like took extra being an extrovert as in like to the extreme yeah

And I remember talking about how like, well, you know, inside I would be like just a tornado of anxiety and freaking out and worried about all this stuff.

And then when I got to the thing that I was anticipating, I would just just very expressive.