Wendy K. Laidlaw

to a part of us and equally another part of us would have been in conflict with that because we didn't want to upset everybody wanted to conform make everybody happy and to fit in which kind of brings me as we round up here is is more kind of we don't even know what ancestral trauma that we're perhaps holding that's come on down through the generations it wasn't that long ago

where there was world war ii i mean it was only what 70 years ago you know there's still a couple of generations that are still you know i mean if you think back to when the women were working the factories when the men were at war and then men came back with all sorts of ptsd and trauma from the war and the horrors that they saw what happened to all those feelings and things that that that and these sensations and things that happened that they witnessed whether it's

you know, the women themselves or the men and how did that all kind of, you know, when you think how all that unfolded and then in the 1950s in America and Britain in particular and in Europe, women were heavily marketed to and influenced to get out the factories, don't work, stay at home, be chained to the kitchen sink, produce babies, put a ribbon in your hair and cook your husband's meal.

So they'd gone from

you know, what, I don't know, 20 years or so of, you know, taking care of other people in a productive way, in an environmental way, in a business way.

Even in the 1970s here in the UK, women had to give up their jobs when they married their men.

And the reason I'm sharing all that is, I don't know what storage in your body that you would have taken on from your great granny, your granny, your mother, and that's come down to you.

Over and above,

what might be going on there subconsciously.

So there's a little bit to unpack.

We don't always do quickly, even though I'm sure there's a part of you that's like, just get it over and get it done with.

That's the, that's the trick.

That's one thing I was very thankful for having the counselor and therapist that I have is she was one wavering 100% acceptance of me, of me where I was at.

And I think that's what I say to you is it doesn't matter.

You're not comparing yourself to anybody else.

This is you and your journey.

What you are going to do is just make sure that you are continuing to journal every morning as you wake up.

That's the key.

Remember, you're in that kind of awake, aware alpha state where you're just not fully conscious yet.

You've not put the mask on for the day.