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So I haven't sat down and talked with her about it because I guess I'm kind of put it in my mind that if this marriage that I have with my wife were to potentially fail, that I didn't want this reasoning of what's going on.

Right.

No, I'm aware of that part.

What I'm saying is that, like, obviously...

our marriage pre this had obviously its problems.

We're trying, we were trying to, you know, work on those things.

And I obviously made the mistake initially and, you know, her and I, we haven't engaged in anything in a while because obviously I'm taking a step back, but it's also one of those that it's at the point where I feel like in order to

Build with my wife, if that's what her and I choose to do, then I need to obviously be upfront and honest with her about everything that has happened.

And if I do that, then.

No, I get what you're saying.

I think.

I think that's where I've been struggling because it's like I have gotten far down the road, obviously.

And I think in my mind, I have this delusion that there is a different path out besides going back.

No, I think it's, it's one of those that I'm trying to, you know, obviously I haven't let many people or anybody know about this situation, you know, so obviously I've only ever had my opinions weigh on it.

And so having, you know, an outside source weigh in on it is obviously beneficial, but it's also making me hear things that I haven't heard, obviously things that were, are accurate, but I haven't,

because I'm not telling myself those.

Everyone likes to think that obviously there's a good way to land every plane in life, obviously, so I think I have been caught up trying to figure out if it's possible to land it versus actually realizing that it's not.

Yeah, I think I've just spent too much time dancing around and trying to figuring out how to make the fire as small as possible when in reality the focus should be on that the fire is happening regardless.

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