Yvonne

I still live at home, so it's not going to work out.

And then, I mean, God forbid.

But so about a month ago or no, a few weeks ago, he had reached out, started talking.

We went on a date, same kind of conversation, implying that this was going to go forward.

Now we're both out of school.

We both have jobs.

We're both back home, whatever.

And then again, within like maybe two days, he pulled back again and was like, I don't think I'm ready for this.

But this has been going on for a long time.

And I don't know why I keep going back and I'm like, okay, well, maybe this time when he has shown me time and time again that this is definitely not something he wants.

Yeah.

Well, and, like, we had...

the connection or whatever in high school, he was like the star baseball.

I was on the soccer team, whatever it just like fit.

And then it just, I think I realized that it wasn't going to fit.

And some, even sometimes after hanging out with him, I was like, I don't even know if I really like him anymore, but then I still would like want that validation from him that he was still wanting or interested in me.

Yeah.

And I always thought each time he was going to fully commit and it never happened.

Well, and it's just hard too, because I used to check in with myself and protect myself and not commit or hang out with these guys that have already done me wrong.

But I feel like I've been lacking that, that I no longer really check in with myself.