Zerk

The fact that I'm staying up late, the fact that I'm not on my routine, the fact that I've been kind of neglecting doing simple things for myself because there's something at the core that is making me feel bad.

And it's the fact that I'm not letting myself experiment and have fun.

Which is weird, because isn't that the point of Minecraft?

Right?

You could take the same example and apply it to the gym.

A lot of us have faced this.

No matter your age, no matter your gender.

You go to the gym and you seek refuge in the gym because you were called something.

Someone told you, made fun of you for the way that you looked.

You were too scrawny, too big, too wide, too short, whatever.

So you go into the gym, to the Church of Iron, and you start pumping.

And when you start pumping, you realize how good it is for you and how it makes you feel and how it's nice.

It's cool seeing your gains in real time.

But you also...

fall in this trap where you've self-actualized this person that you wanna be, you've gained some muscle, whatever, and it can go one of two ways, usually.

One is that it's not enough.

So then you hop on things like, you know, you start eating the trend bologna sandwiches and you start really, really being obsessed with your body dysmorphia.

Another thing is that you realize the person that called you ugly or whatever, they never really cared about you.

Their opinion doesn't really matter.

And so you are thrown in this weird kind of middle room where you're like, do I keep going to the gym for myself?