Chapter 1: What is the main topic discussed in this episode?
Hey. Hi. How are you? Yeah, I am feeling a bit awkward today, if I'm being honest, because I have to sit you down and have a serious conversation with you today.
Chapter 2: What serious news is being shared in this episode?
That's really what it feels like. Jokes aside, it literally feels like I'm sitting down a friend to have a serious conversation. And that's never fun. Yes, it can be productive and healthy and beautiful, but But that doesn't mean it's easy. That doesn't mean it's fun. Hell, it's never fun. Today, I'm going to be giving you some news that I consider to be bittersweet.
For those of you who enjoy Anything Goes, it might be shitty news. For those of you who hate Anything Goes, oh my God, this is going to be your favorite episode I ever make. In fact, turn it up. Turn it up. You're going to love this one. Let's just rip off the Band-Aid, okay? Let's stop beating around the bush. I am taking a little podcast break, okay? Yep, taking a little podcast break.
Now, let's rip the Band-Aid all the way off because I was just ripping it halfway off. Let's rip it all the way off now. I don't know how long the break's going to be. I wish I had answers for you. I don't have answers for you. I'm taking an indefinite podcast break. Now, I know you're thinking, Emma, that means quitting. That means you're done forever. Emma, where did this come from?
This is coming out of left field. I feel betrayed by you. Fuck you. You're a fucking bitch. You suck. Go fuck yourself. Go punch yourself. Go into the backyard and beat yourself up. You're a bitch and you suck and I'm unsubscribing and I'm blocking you and you suck and you suck.
Honestly, if you feel that way about this news that I just gave you, I take that as a compliment because the fact that you enjoy this show enough to be mad at me is actually really nice. But yes, okay, I understand all these feelings if you're feeling this way.
I also can't tell if I'm like, am I being too self-important? Like, does no one even give a fuck? You know what I mean?
Am I like, okay, you guys, let's rip off the bandaid with this bad news. I'm taking a podcast break and everyone's like, okay. Okay, all good.
See you later. Don't care. I don't know. But sometimes when I speak about myself or what I do in this way to the audience, I'm like, wait, am I completely delusional and no one really cares?
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Chapter 3: Why is the host taking a podcast break?
And I'm like, oh, I hope you're not mad at me that I'm doing... And then everyone's like, yeah, no one's mad. No one cares. Well, just assuming that there's one person out there that is... maybe a bit bummed by this news, I get it. It did kind of come out of left field.
However, it has been something I've been ruminating on for a while now and been avoiding, but I ultimately had sort of an aha moment about a month ago where I realized it was time to do this. And once I knew that I needed to do it, it was like, okay, I got to do it. And I consider this episode, okay, that I'm making right now to be bittersweet.
I don't think it's sad because I actually feel really inspired by this decision. It's not like I'm making this decision because I'm feeling really down in the dumps. I'm feeling really bummed out. I'm feeling really burnt out. I'm making this decision because I know it's time to grow and evolve and restructure. Go back to the drawing board, career-wise, for me.
And that's really scary because when something's doing well, when something's working, it is not necessarily intuitive to say, okay, now I'm going to take a break and go back to the drawing board. You know, it's not intuitive. It's intuitive to just continue.
Chapter 4: How does the host feel about the decision to pause the podcast?
However, in my soul, and I wish I could explain it, but I can't. In my soul, I woke up one day and I knew that I needed to go back to the drawing board because I knew that the way I was doing this podcast, the way that I was not even beyond this podcast, the way that I was structuring my work life was was not working for me.
And it's up to me to step back, make necessary changes, and then reenter. And here's the thing. I'm not like disappearing off of the internet. The thing is with the podcast is that The podcast is a scheduled thing, right? Whereas everything else is not. So that's why it feels necessary to come here and say, I'm taking a podcast break and I'm not doing that with anything else.
And I've never done that with anything else in the past because it hasn't been on as rigid of a schedule. But going back to what I was saying, this is a bittersweet episode, in my opinion, because I'm not making this decision from a place of weakness, of sadness. It's not coming from a place of burnout.
It's coming from a place of excitement, inspiration, and the desire to restructure things in a way that will actually allow me to create more of the things I want to create. Because I've always been somebody that likes to do everything myself. I've always been someone that has to have her little grimy hands on every single thing that she does. And listen, I will continue to be that way.
However, there are various structural shifts that I can make in my career without sacrificing integrity that would actually allow me to create more than what I'm creating now, allow me to put out more than what I'm putting out now. if I just take a step back, go back to the drawing board and figure out how. And I know I need to do this because again, I like woke up one day and just knew.
And whenever I have intuitive feelings like that, I really try to honor them. And I will say, I've been kind of feeling that for a little bit and kind of ignoring it. And then I woke up one day and it was really loud and I just knew. And now we're here and this decision has been made. But it's ultimately because there's more things that I want to do.
And in order to do those things, I need to restructure, if that makes sense. And I don't really want to elaborate on what that means because I tend to prefer to work in silence, figure it out on my own, and then come back when it's finished, you know? And so I'm sorry for being vague, but that's one thing. Another thing is... Yeah. But I would love to just have some time to create freely.
This idea of freedom where I could make whatever I wanted. If I wanted to make a podcast episode one week, I could do that. If I wanted to make four YouTube videos one week, don't get any ideas. But I'm just saying, if I wanted to make four YouTube videos one week, I could do that. If I wanted to make 50 Instagram reels, I could do that. If I wanted to...
Spend an entire month just working on Chamberlain Coffee and that's it. If I wanted to, I would like to have a period of time where I could experience that without a schedule. And I feel like that would be really inspiring for me and I want to give myself that. So that's another thing. And last but not least, I've been podcasting for seven years now.
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Chapter 5: What has led to the decision to restructure content creation?
It will bear fruit, this decision. It's not like, oh my God, she's like quitting this and now she's like, cause she fucking is a lazy sack of shit and she's disappearing and she's gonna, because she's lazy. You know, it's not, I promise you, I promise you it's not that. I promise you it's that I've felt frustrated for years feeling like, oh, there's so many things I wanna do and I wanna make.
For entertainment for these people. And I don't have the fucking time to do all of it because I'm not structuring this properly. And I've been struggling with that for years and I cannot do it anymore.
Chapter 6: What does the host hope to achieve during the break?
You know? And on top of that, I'm inspired and have all these ideas of things I want to try and But I haven't had time to try them because I've been in the minutia of, you know, the sort of work life that I've structured for myself. And so this is ultimately a very positive, productive, awesome thing. And I'm excited because I am very deeply passionate about creating things for you.
Now, whoever you are, you know, it doesn't even matter. Whoever you are who wants to consume it, this is my ultimate passion and I want to be able to do it more. So that's where this is coming from. Seems a bit counterintuitive, seems a bit counterintuitive, but that's where it's coming from. And I deeply thank you all for supporting me in this podcast throughout the years.
I'm not going anywhere. Maybe I am for a little bit, but ultimately in the grand scheme of things, I'm not going anywhere. And I really deeply appreciate
cherish what we've created here and I do not take it for granted and I'm not just running away or anything like that I'm weirdly like emotional I'm like what the fuck wait why is this what is happening what like my eye kind of got a little watery I was like oh What's that?
There's probably a trillion things that I am forgetting to say, but my brain's kind of mush, to be honest, because I think I had a lot of anxiety going into making this episode, but I'm feeling a lot better now that we've communicated. See, look at the power of communication. What I've always said on this show, anything goes. the power of communication. It's powerful. It really is.
I'm not going to lie. I'm nervous because I think the second I stop recording this episode, the second I turn off the buttons, it's like, okay, Emma, now what the fuck are you going to do? You know what you have to do, but now you got to go do it. It's kind of that. And that's really exciting, but also a little bit terrifying.
Anyway, not to be overly parasocial, but I do love and appreciate you all. And I'm grateful that you all show up for me. To those of you who do show up for me, I'm very grateful. And I hope that you can feel my gratitude through the screen. And with all that being said, I'll talk to you very soon. And listen, again, you're going to be like, Emma didn't even disappear.
She like posted on Instagram and then she like randomly posted a YouTube video. And then she like randomly posted about like... I don't know. I don't know what's happening. I don't know what's happening. So you just have to just, I'll probably talk to you sooner than you think. Okay. I love you all. I love you and I'm going to make you proud. Okay. I promise you I will.
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